I am a lost soul,
Tossed about like a child’s plaything.
My home is the driving edge of the wind.
I know no hearth or warm embrace,
I have no heart or purpose.
My mission is void and my actions lifeless.
I float upon the laughter of the living,
Knowing I’ll never breathe a laugh or break a smile.

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Written on my phone while listening to someone practice the piano. Straight piano music for some reason always does this to me.

Now is a very confusing time for me. I don’t know where I am. Or what I’m supposed to be doing. I know that in my ear is encouragement, Truth, and The Word. These I hold to; for there’s nothing else that matters. Recently, I was informed that the Greek word, or one of them, (it’s irrelevant) is literally translated more towards belief. Not an “if” mindset, but a “when” one. This means a lot to me where I am. I am told of hope, and to “hope” for the moving of The Father in a given area of my life. But, it would seem, this is not a false and empty sense of I really want something to happen; but rather the heart belief that it will happen. Granted, my will is not the Father’s. But what I do know, is that The Father is working. Not in my time frame, and to my goals upon this earth, but for His ultimate Glory. What a blessing and privilege to be a part of that plan; however I happen to be involved.

Now, I want You, Father. Nothing else matters. My ideas of where to go and what to do have long since failed. My belief is in You, and Your ability to work in the people and events in my life for Your Holy Purpose. Help me to see this as my purpose; and not my ideas. I love You, Jesus.

“….Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Takeing every step in obedience
While I’m waiting
I will serve You
While I’m waiting
I will worship
While I’m waiting
I will not faint
I’ll be running the race
Even while I wait…”