Years ago in a time past I would look at him. A wave of disgust and hate would sweep over me, and I would look away. And then look back. It seemed everyone hated him. As I did, they turned up their noses and scoffed, frowned and hated. He didn’t even seem to notice how conceited and vain he was. His look, his act, they were scorned by all who knew him. His only “friends” were ones who had the same act. He hung out with popular kids, he had all the cute girls, but he is an empty, lonely shell. To him, the world is a dirt bag. One ignores the game. Slowly, surely, steadily, I found myself liking him. Like a parasite, he fed upon my bowels until, it seemed, I was him. Or he was me. What difference does it really make anymore? I woke up in the morning and stared into the mirror for a very long moment. After sleep left me, I stared deeper into my eyes. I stared at my face. I gazed upon my features. Then the similarity hit me. I was him. Deep inside a portion of me that hardly ever comes out. He had eaten me to what seemed was the very core of who I am. I vowed to do something to cleanse myself of this man I’d become. For, as it was, I hated myself. He had done this to me. No, I had done it. There was no turning back. I am this man whom I hate. I am this man.
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no matter how hard i try,
i always let down those i love.
can’t ever seem to do it right,
that which is always perfect.
been trying for what seems like eons
to please, to perfect, to be,
better, stronger, faster.
perhaps once in this vast eternity,
in this unshifting time,
i’ll get it right, i’ll get it perfect.
so it seems, when the day comes,
no one will notice,
no one will care,
only i, only in my mind,
will take time to notice,
time to care.
with newfound knowledge,
what is to try,
why continue,
in this endless pursuit,
of what is really nothing,
in the end?
so i stop.
stop moving,
stop pushing,
stop trying,
and they hate that too.
Tomorrow I shall post an attempt at poetry.
Have a happy one.
The guy who directed Night In The Museum (which was an awesome movie) is supposed to direct The Flash according to this site. I’ll keep my fingers crossed.
Some misc. news involving film…
Today is John Williams birthday…
Spider Man 4 is in the works…
More clues to the next National Treasure movie are on IMDB….
The Dark Knight is working on a new film for ‘08 with Christian Bale still on to be Batman/Bruce wayne…
While on the subject of heroes, there is no IMDB entry for the next Superman…. But I’m sure they’re working on one… At least, I hope they are…
Iron Man is getting his own movie in 2008!
If you’re interested… an interview with Jerry Bruckheimer can be read here….
And last but definitely not least, the Silver Surfer looks absolutely awesome in this new trailer…
So, those are the movie headline’s that get my attention. Not that you’re by any means interested…
I hope you all like the pics that were posted last week. I did.
Anyway I ran across this site while browsing Holy Grail fansites. This is one of the best examples of 90’s internet out there. So… classic, so… blocky, so…. ugly. Oh well. I find it interesting to look at. Be sure to see The Unofficial Monty Python Home Page on there too.
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The last in our series of photos…
Amazing Hand Painting Art
Star Wars Car
Michael Poliza Aerial Photography